There we stood
On the cusp
Under the cement
Lichen on the walls
Memories in my heart
Her eyes piercing me
Begging me
Not here
Not now
Life passed around us
Voices
Cars
Tires on pavement
Birds chirping like a fucking Disney movie
“This isn’t me”
I say the words
“I’m not me anymore
Just a hollow corpse
Built of your desires
A Frankenstein of your feelings
But it’s not me”
Tears gather against the whites of her eye
The green parts plead with me
“Don’t do this”
Her voice is raspy
I am unyielding
“I tried so hard to make you happy
But I got lost on the way
This isn’t what I wanted
This isn’t what I meant for”
The sun is setting in the distance
Shadows moving slowly
Stretching
Growing
“That other me
The real me
That me is dead
He died for your sins
And you left me nothing”
The fading sunlight shines through her blonde hair
Sets it off
Frames her like a halo
Innocence seeps from her face
Plying eyes
Guiltless in the pending night
Humble against the odds
“I can hear him
The old me
He’s lost
Confused
He’s trying to come back to me
But he hit a wall
A wall you built in me”
She shakes her head as if to ward off unpleasant thoughts
Denial flashes in her eyes
Those green eyes
“I can’t do it anymore
This mask
It’s killing me”
I turn
No looking back
And walk away
Pretending to ignore the sobs behind me
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