I’ve spent years feeling lost
Wondering where I belong
Wondering if I belong
I floated through life
Through relationships
Through marriage
Never sure what part was mine
What part of this grand act
Where in this colossal comedy I belonged
I’ve played the part of son
I’ve played the part of husband
I’ve played the part of father
And I never belonged
I’ve even played the part of hero
I’ve fought death and won
And yet still
I never belonged
I’ve searched high and low
Looking for my place
I’ve searched the eyes of many lovers
I’ve looked in the bottom of many bottles
Nothing felt right
The feeling I’d get
Speeding across town
Sirens blaring
Lights flashing
Pumping away on your patients chest
You’ve seen the light leave their eyes
But you fight anyway
It feels useless but you fight anyway
You push and try because it’s a life
You keep on going despite all the signs that you should give up
And the hospital is so far away
But you keep trying anyway
That feeling
Fighting the inevitable
And losing
That is what my life felt like
I didn’t belong
I couldn’t coexist
But
I finally found where I belong
In that moment when the person you love
When they don’t have time for you
In that moment when you know it’s your fault
When they get angry
When they get sad
Because of something selfish you did
In those moments
When screams are how you talk
When inanimate objects take the brunt
When vases shatter
And glasses break
In those moments
When tears are the makeup of your love
When the cold shoulder is a way of life
In those moments I feel at home
In those moments I belong
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